Today’s my dad’s birthday. He would have been 74 today. Except he’s not because he got cancer and died almost six years ago, and that sucks a lot. Usually on days like this I’d write a thoughtful post about what a great person he was, and maybe something about how I’m processing the grief. But I don’t want to. I don’t feel like it. I don’t feel like going down that rabbit hole because I know it’ll freshen the pain that has softened and dulled. I don’t want to feel it fresh and sharp again. Maybe that’s one more step in the process. I don’t know. I don’t really want to examine it that fully. I’ll just say that I miss him, some days more than others, but at least I know it gets easier to bear as time goes on.
I’m in a funk today anyway, and I’m not sure if it’s the date or what. The dogs have this new thing where they wake up super early, like 4:30. We think it might be Grace needing to pee because of her steroids. We were able to halve the dose a couple of days ago so maybe that will get better. But still, this morning I got up with them, let them out, and then curled up on the couch to doze for another couple of hours. Better than nothing, but not as good as real sleep in a bed. And I have a sinus headache. And I have all the social obligations this weekend, instead of two whole days to knit.
So yes. I’m clearly in a funk and need to find a way out. Maybe I’ll spend some time with my socks this morning before I have to do all the things. I finished one sock last night, one for the girl, and it’s good. I like it.
You can’t see the sparkle, can you? But know that it’s there, a twinkly little strand of stellina. It’s in my Wonder Woman sock, too, which is quite fun to knit.
With any luck, some sock knitting and extra tea will brighten my morning and make the rest of the day go smoothly. And even though the dogs are buttheads sometimes, being around them is usually a treat too. They’re good. I like them.
That’s a lovely sock 🙂 I hope you find more time to knit than you are expecting xx
Thank you! I did, and it was so helpful! 🙂
That’s good to hear 🙂
Those dog faces are irresistible! Sorry about the funk. Give yourself a treat as soon as possible, say no to requests for your company and plan an weeknight evening or weekend day just for yourself. It will do you a world of good.
Thank you, that does sound wonderful!
Hoping the sock knitting and the extra tea helped. Can relate to your funk, hope it passes soon. ❤
Much better today, thank you! They always come and go, don’t they? 🙂
I’m sorry about your funk, and your loss. I had a similar funk at the end of last week due to some news a friend received. Knitting helped me through my funk, and I hope it helped you through yours as well! ❤
Thank you! Yes, knitting came through for me once again, thank goodness! 🙂
Sweet puppies. Your socks are beautiful. I’m so sorry for your loss and for feeling like your in a funk. It really does get to a point where things just feel numb.
Sorry about your funk. Cancer really sucks. It is devastating to watch someone you love suffer such a tragedy.
My father passed away, 10 ago this month. Although I was fortunate to have him until the age of 90, it still was not enough time with him.
Sending comforting thoughts your way.
I’m so sorry about your dad. It’s never enough time, is it?