Guys, I need to unburden myself. I have worries, many of them. I am afraid we made a colossal mistake when we bought this house two years ago. It was in the neighborhood we wanted, a price we could afford, the size and features we wanted, and we thought we had the time/energy/mental stamina to do all the work it needed. And it needs a LOT. More than we realized when we bought it. I’m not sure our inspector gave us a thorough idea of some of the bigger issues, and I’m not sure if he did and we ignored it because we were in a hurry.
So now we’re in a house with an old home addition that wasn’t done right to begin with, and probably needs to be torn down and rebuilt. When it was done, the rooms it added weren’t done as conditioned living space, so at least tearing it down doesn’t lose us any square footage. But spending the money to tear it down doesn’t really add to the value, so without doing a rebuild, we’re afraid it’s just throwing money away. And doing the rebuild in a way that adds valuable living space feels prohibitively expensive. (We’ve gotten two bids. Both daunting.)
It needs to be painted, badly. The pet-stained hardwood floors need to be repaired and refinished. The radiators and boiler need to be removed. The upstairs bathroom needs to be gutted and redone. The kitchen was redone, but with cheap materials, so it’s aging quickly. The front porch needs a new floor, and possibly joist repair underneath, plus new stairs and railings. The fireplace needs to be redone. The landscaping sucks. There’s not good storage. And on and on, with a myriad of smaller jobs that stare me in the face day after day.
Add onto that the unexpected projects that have come up since we bought it: the existing chain-link fence was too short and needed to be replaced with an attractive picket fence. Raccoons in the attic and wall. A small tree losing limbs and needing a trim. A large tree losing a large section, and probably needing to be removed. A dishwasher that died. Insulation that needed to be added.
It all wears me down. Wears me out. When I first saw this house, I loved it. I loved the traditional style, the hardwood trim, the pocket doors, the high ceilings, the wraparound porch. I think I still love those things, but they’re overshadowed by everything else. This house has a lot of potential to be stunning. I can almost see it in my mind’s eye. I just don’t know if we can be the people to get it there. Aside from the money, I think about the hassle of renovation. We have three big dogs; taking away their access to the backyard, even temporarily, would make life really difficult. We have two kids; taking away access to the kitchen for weeks would be annoying. One of our dogs is not friendly to strangers. He doesn’t bite, but barks. A lot. Managing all the workmen coming in and out would be stressful. My husband and I manage home repair jobs in different ways that have resulted in conflict in the past, and I don’t want to be fighting for the next five years.
And then, as weird as it may sound, I have emotional connections to my homes, and my connection with this one has soured. I broke my foot in this house. My husband and I struggled more than we ever have while living here, partly because of how we went about moving here. We’re doing all right now, we’re fine, but now it’s connected for me. It’s like, with the old house, that’s where I lived when we lost my dad, my father-in-law, my husband’s grandfather, my dad’s dog. Moving for me felt like a fresh start, a clean slate. So now, with all that’s happened just in two years, I don’t love this house anymore. I don’t love it enough to stress us all out to fix it up. I don’t love it enough to pour a ton of money into it, when that money could go somewhere else.
So what do we do? Right now, the husband is more flexible than I am. Big renovation doesn’t scare him off, although he does want to make sure we could get our money back when we sell if we rehab. Me? I want to move. I’m ready to go NOW. I could pack up and walk away without a second thought, if we could get out what we paid. I want a newer house, one that won’t need huge home repair jobs in the next five years. One that’s built to have a big TV in the living room. One with good-sized closets. One with a functional kitchen and a laundry room. One with modern windows that don’t whistle with every cold wind.
I don’t know what’s next. We’ve reached out to a realtor to explore our options, and I’m doing my best to be open-minded. Of course, I’m also online looking at houses for sale, but that’s to be expected, right?
Sigh. Anyone want a house?
Sorry that you are feeling so overwhelmed by things at the moment. I understand about associating events with your house and loosing the enjoyment out of your home (my last home was given the name ‘black hole’!).
It sounds to me as if you have come to a decision that is right for you. Wishing you all the best and hope you find a solution soon. X
Thank you so much! Yes, mine often feels like a black hole.
Sorry to hear your house which should be a comfort is causing you so much hassle! I hope you have better omens moving on. Perhaps this house wasn’t a mistake as such, it has only made you realise more clearly what you want and need. Sending support and wishes! X
That’s a nice way to look at it! And very true too. Thanks so much!
Really feel for you. It sounds like moving is what you really want. Having your house valued and looking to see what is out there will help you feel a bit more in control of the situation methinks.
Sending my best wishes xx
Thank you! I think it will definitely help to talk to the realtor and see what we can do. And I do want to move, it’s true. Now I just need a buyer who wants a good project house!
Boy, that does sound overwhelming when you put it all in one place. I wish I had an easy answer (or a million dollars) for you. 😦
Thank you. 🙂
I’m sorry 😐 it sounds like a really frustrating situation. I understand about all of the memories attached to it too. A fresh start is always nice!
Thank you. 🙂 I’m looking forward to a fresh start!
To expand, we had a house that we loved in a pretty village, it was cold and draughty and a money pit. We moved, reduced the mortgage and we are lovely and warm and whilst not rich, certainly better off than we were.
Thanks for sharing that! I don’t think the mortgage would go down, but we certainly wouldn’t have to have a significant monthly “home repair” budget and that would help a lot! As would being warm in the winter!
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